just an ordinary day...

i'm starting to think my friends don't think i should like ...him.
let's give him an imaginary name.
how about curly. bahaha. okay
so i don't think my friends think curly and i would ever be a couple.
and i agree with them actually.
he would never like me.
but i feel like my friends aren't being supportive.
school was okay.
pottery was fun :]
i love working on the wheel.
hale, mad, & kim make me laugh.
but now im covered in clay :/

i just reread all of my blogs including this one and realized how shallow i sound.
seriously. what the f** is wrong with me.
god. i hate everything about myself :[

things are looking...up?

things were okay today.
i really like someone :]
but i don't think he likes me. :/
we're friends.
he hugged me today:]
but he's just a flirt.
so its not gonna happen. :[
but whatever. :/
today was a goodish day.
pottery class tomorrow :]
using the wheel with kim, hale, & mad
see you later - - - > x JuLMusic x

one of those f***ing days..

ever have one of those days?
when all you feel like doing is sleeping?
and all you can think about is the fact that you arent good enough?
well. im having one of those days.
ive spent the day roaming the internet and watching america's next top model reruns.
never before have i felt so useless.
ive been stabbed in the back before...
but this time i was truly blind sided.
i feel like CRAP.

About x JuLMusic x

so. i thought i'd start by telling you about..ME! bahaha. cause i dont know what else to do :/
I'm Julia. music & art are my LIFE. i believe that laughter can cure almost anything...temporarily. my life has changed a lot in the past few months. ive kinda hated it... but with the help of my family and some friends ive been able to push through. i never thought i was one to hate change...but i guess i am. im lucky to have the family i do...im really close with them. I love my friends more than anything roaming this place we call earth <33 well maybe except tyson ritter....jk [wow...that was weird. and random...but true hahaha] they always know how to make me feel better. we love being total idiots together and do the stupidest [but most fun] things. i never use the phrase "lol" cause its stupid. no one ever actually "LOLs" when they type "lol". sometimes i feel like the art of sarcasm is underappreciated. im OBSESSED with the musical "RENT" and the movie "across the universe". jim sturgess and joe anderson have the voices of angels. x33 OH! and that picture there?? yeah thats THE mark jacket. from rent. OH YES. you are JEALOUS. I love acting and singing and painting. the all-american rejects, the beatles, three days grace, taking back sunday, cobra starship, jack's mannequin, and escape the fate are a few of my favorites bands...there are many more. music is a HUGE part of my life and keeps me going when things are looking pretty crappy. and im not quite sure how to end this...so im gonna go with a rent quote. "there is no future. there is no past. i live this moment as my last." --jonathan larson

Blogging...

soo.. blogging.
ive never really "blogged" before.
so im gonna start by saying hello:] nice to see you there sitting behind your computer reading my blog.
not that you will... or will you?
i dont know...
i really hope you guys are those "newb" hating types...
cause i hate being new.
there's nothing wrong with it.
i think i was just traumatized by moving a lot as a child...
aaaaaanywayys.
so talk to me?
say hello. i dont bite.
i think im a fairly friendly person xD